Red Rock

Crow flying over Red Rock We drove up Old Topanga Canyon Road, past my first house, past Erik’s old house, past the home of the Strychnine Sisters and on to Red Rock. We almost gave up, the single-lane road crowded in by parked cars and garbage cans, twisting and rutted, and so obviously leading nowhere.

Red Rock Hillside

Red Rock is beautiful, even with a giant home TV antenna almost at the top of Calabasas Peak. An alligator lizard lay twitching in the road, fatally injured. I have no memories of this part of Topanga, the home of infant me. My mother remembers it though, of once giving a ride to Charles Manson, and throwing him out of the the v-dub once he started rambling. His race riot fantasies are the wet dreams of today’s GOP. How sad to go from one crazy motherfucker to an entire political movement full of them.

Dead Alligator Lizard

I love the shade, but wish for wider roads. Topanga was a refuge for the beatniks and hippies. It’s a good thing they got rich, because there is no way they could afford to live here now. Rattlesnakes and earthquakes, hillsides and mudslides, brush fires sweeping through the canyons. This is my childhood.

Ali takes in the view

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Home

I said goodbye last night. Not that it mattered; every time I came into the room, we met anew. I was alternately a stranger, my own father, a son, and on rare happy occasions, myself. My grandfather knows that he is in a fog, recognition and memories just beyond reach, and it frustrates him. Then he goes back to the television and it no longer matters. I don’t know how to react. I am happy for the sparks of recognition, but still I miss my grandfather.

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Rattlesnakes and Earthquakes

It is a travel day. Once again, I am off on the departure time. I could have sworn that it was 6, not 6:30. Instead of fifteen minutes late, we are 15 minutes early. A rapid drive down dark highways, making up for lost time that isn’t. This is the 101, past Pierce College, past Sherman Oaks, on through the darkness and into Burbank. Hollywood Way leads us to the airport and to an hour of calm reflection at the gate, listening to 80’s music. Thompson Twins, Duran Duran, Madness . . . It is 2008, isn’t it? Holy crap, it’s Genesis!

At the moment, I am reflecting on the foolishness of my gustatory indiscretions. Raw cauliflower dipped in eggplant hummus. Blued stilton on rosemary garlic crackers. Chili. Three glasses of Merlot. And for dessert, a Trader Joe’s chocolate bundt cake that I am pretty sure was made out of sawdust and ex-lax, with an overindulgent serving of coffee bean ice cream. Add two glasses of champagne that would have been better suited to cleaning battery terminals a short time later in celebration of president-elect Obama, and you have a room-clearing combination of swamp gases. It is going to be an awkward flight.

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Keep Him Safe, Please!

Welcome, President Obama!!!  I’ve finished my champagne, listened to the concession speech interrupted by typical angry booings and slurs, and am going to bed.  Too bad McCain couldn’t have been this gracious for his whole campaign.  Perhaps things would have turned out differently if he hadn’t fomented so much hatred.  But it’s finally over, and the best man won.

I was amazed at how quickly it ended.  My memory is fuzzy on election nights prior to 2000.  Honestly, it hadn’t mattered that much to me before then.  2000 dragged out for weeks.  2004 took a day or so, I think.  Tonight, it all ended with California closing its polls.  Thank you, California.  Actually, thank you, nation.  Or at least those parts that voted Democrat.  The rest of you can go to hell. 

Yes, I know I’m supposed to be magnanimous and forgive the hatred and bigotry of the right, but honestly, fuck ’em.  I’ve had to put up with eight years of incompetence and evil from the Bush presidency, two years of hate-based campaigning for this presidency, and twelve years of your so-called Gingrich-inspired crapolution, so if you’re going to be a sack of douchewallops, I am not yet ready to forgive you.  Frankly, I fully support the AIP, but only as long as every motherfucking one of you that voted Republican this time around is shipped off to Alaska before it secedes.  Fuck you and the party you stand for.  That is all.

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No On Prop. H8

It’s a bit late, considering we are voting on the issue today (and by we, I mean you Californians, not us visiting Idahoans), but I’ve decided that it should be Yes on 8.  Of course, Prop 8 needs to be reworked slightly first:  The current benefits of marriage need to be stripped away so that a marriage is purely religious in nature.  To those of us who want the current benefits and support of marriage, we would need a civil ceremony, which would be available to any couples, gay or straight.

With this reworking, churches such as the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints that want to promote intolerance and bigotry, can do so within the bounds of their own religion and leave the rest of us the fuck alone.  Since there are plenty of Christian sects out there that aren’t still so hung up on no longer being able to discriminate against blacks and women that they have to focus all their hatred on the gays, those can be the faiths for the hopeful Christians of America. 

For those of us who accept that god is a word, rather than God the Word, we can be happy celebrating our religion-free marriages.  And to that, I say “Thank God.”  Oops.

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I’m A Sucker For Sappy Stuff

Just a quick link to a hopeful story about voting today.

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Vote, dummy!

I stayed up late last night to see how this mess would start.  Or is it end?  The start of the end, I guess.  Thank you, Dixville, for showing hope.  Now the rest of you, get out there and vote!

And to the little girl down the street squeaking “Vote Barack Obama for President!” this morning, thank you as well.  I like my worldview being reiterated, even if I was still trying to sleep here.

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Obama

It’s unlikely Obama will win in Alaska, but at least it looks close.  It’s nice to know that even though all I ever did was throw money at Obama, someone in my family was out working hard for an Obama victory.  Thank you, cousin Molly!!!

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Heading South

I came in the night, shrouded in darkness, relying on my sense of smell rather than sight.  What I smell is manure.  Horse and cow shit, to be precise.  This is not the SoCal of my childhood, this is Norco.  A working-class horse town, dirt and gravel riding paths rather than sidewalks, Norco is an a fascinating oddity in the zooming, car-worshiping bustle of Southern California.

There is a small grey bunny cowering in the middle of my aunt and uncle’s lawn, and I am glad that my kids are not with me this time.  Had they been, they would have begged me to catch it.  When morning comes, I find myself surrounded by horses and horse people.  This town looks to have as many horses as people.  This wouldn’t be so odd if only there were a working ranch nearby, maybe a large cattle industry.  But no, these are pleasure horses.  Some are to ride, some are company, and some are company to horses.  It’s only a few minutes to Riverside, a short drive further to the chaos of Los Angeles, yet this is a town of tack stores, feed stores, trailer stores and small churches, everything in a western theme.  It is as unreal as Epcot Village, a dusty oddity that is charming in its stuccoed glory.  Had I to choose, I’d rather have the dust and dirt and stucco and smell of horses of the million-horse town Norco, though.  I can see sandstone hills from here, covered in trails.  There are horses being ridden along the riverbed, along the dusty downtown sidewalks, and through the neighborhoods.  Not what you would expect for a part of California known more for its car culture.  Nobody walks in L.A., and everybody rides in Norco.  Awesome. 

It is early November and everyone hopes for rain to kill the dust.  Hot nights, hotter days, hard for a man acclimated to Northern Idaho to sleep.  I spend my first day with a headache, but end it with a most wonderful Pinot Noir and a somewhat heated discussion of hope, politics, and the direction of our country.  I am hopeful, but fully aware of the building dread of a possible McCain presidency.  Four more years of hate, fear and divisiveness?    No thank you.  A gentle rain begins falling as we start our meal.  I am the first to feel it, enjoying the occasional splash on my skin.  I want to stay out and finish dinner in the rain, but am overridden.  Oh well.

We take a short trip to the Farmers’ Market in Riverside that first day, enjoying the small but bountiful harvests displayed.  Our market may be larger, but this one focuses on produce only, not crafts, which means more fresh food than I could ever hope for back home.  Produce year-round would be nice, but I wouldn’t want the crowds of SoCal.  And even with the decrease in smog over the last thirty years, I still prefer my air a bit fresher.  Still, it is beautiful in the desert.  I live on the prairie, desertification slowly eating at the nearby edges.  Here it is straight desert, and still a lot more green.  The cooling sea air makes it much more Mediterranean than the high desert of my Inland Northwest.

Sunday morning, we head north on the 10 (or is it west?), to PCH and up Topanga Canyon Boulevard.  I’ve been this way many times over the past forty years, and it does not look that much different until you hit the outskirts of Topanga proper.  The fish market and restaurant is gone, although the regular market and deli next door remains.  Camp WoodWhatever is still there, its sign still in the same state of disrepair it has been in for decades.  Topanga is busier now, bulging in the middle and showing signs of a growing wealth.  To the right is the turn off to Elysium Fields.  It is defunct now, but I spent many a naked day there in my childhood, learning quickly that the nudes are wrinkly.  No risk of embarrassing erections, although naked tennis is a very tough sport for a self-conscious preteen.  Way too may balls on the court. 

Hillside drive and up to my grandfather’s.  Changes have hit hard here as well.  The box canyon no longer has a pond; it has filled in with silt and nobody is around to muck it out.  An empty chicken coop with a “Caution Horses” sign makes me want to look for the world’s smallest horse.  The bamboo is gone, but there is plenty of poison oak.

Opening the gate, I enter the green of the front yard and immediately discover three fence lizards feast on the launching ants, the lizards warily circling one another and taking turns munching at the ants before they fly off.  The largest lizard darts at the sight of me, giving the smaller two a chance to snack.  After a few ants, one of the smaller ones skitters sideways, tail raised, keeping an eye on me.  Hey, I miss lizards.

I miss living near the ocean.  Yes, it means more mold, but the smell of the sea, the fog and weather from living next to the ocean is a wonder.  Some day, perhaps, I will return to the sea.  For now, I am landlocked, a creature of prairie and desert.

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Apples And Oranges

Well f**k me. I bought a new Apple MacBook and just discovered they no longer include a firewire port. Crap. If I’d bought when I originally wanted to, several months ago, I would have an older MacBook with firewire, albeit in a plastic case. But no, I read that the new MacBooks were coming out and waited. This wouldn’t be a big deal, but I wanted to hook up my firewire video camera. Damn you, Steve Jobs!!!

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